Hey ,im Anisha, im 18,<3 men who can make me laugh and is really sweet, im from NYC, im more of a show then tell kinda girl when it comes down to my feeings; people say im werid, i kinda like it cuz i see myself as unique who wants to be normal :p im just happy being me so SMILEZ LMLL!!! ;)
Okayy I broke down I means I broke down as in me crying about how I see myself and what I want for myself it all started when me and my friend was walking a trail to her house and it was 4 miles it was fun anyway we started talk about how we feel about our selfs and what we want in out of life. We’re just weird like that lol. Anyway she was explaining how she feel than I told her how I feel I was like ‘I feel like I’m not worth it’, ’ i still feel pains from when I was bullied in middle school and now in high school’ and how I been teased and it really hurt me like it made me feel pathetic and worthless. Anyway after talking she understood and we talked some more then when I went home and when going to sleep I cried till my eyes burned. Then I walked to my bathroom and said ’ You Are Worth It’, ’ You Are Not Useless’, You Are Amazing’. And other stuff then all of a sudden I felt a weigh off my shoulders and felt amazing after words. so after that I think I can do this. I think I can lose this weigh. I think I can start to believing in my self now, I know I need to take it slow and need to be patience cuz I’m kinda inpatient.
I need motivation and help ughh I hate my flap I hate my body ughh I want to change but I don’t feel confident that I can change I feel like I will always be this stupid big girl ughh :(
Well my excessive n cutting down on certain food hasn’t been good. AT ALL it’s horrible a mess like how could I do this to my poor over weight body like wtffffffffffffff I can’t stop eating. When Im bored I eat,when I’m near food I just have to have it, when I’m with firends I always have to bring up food, like woooww I Reyes using myfitnesspal on my iPhone but like it doesn’t help me wat so ever it did like a couple of days but I got tried of it. It didn’t have some of the workout I did and some of the foods as well. Idk my motivation is 0, and I feel like I have to have something in my mouth at time or just want to eat till I feel that heaviness feeling in my stomach. ughhhh.