Hey ,im Anisha, im 19 i want to lose weight. I want to be a person that is not afraid when people talk behind my back, i want confidence. I want to restore my own self worth; ive been bullied, ive been scared to talk to express my own thoughts, feelings, and ive always doubted myself. I want to see myself as someone worthy. I know that i have to change my mentality before i can change my body, and im still working on it. I wont give up. I will not give up because this is my journey my fight. That im putting all my sweat,blood,tears, heart and soul into. I want to change for me i want to be healthy and to be happy and to say im proud of myself. To be able to look at myself in the mirror and not cry or not look down on myself and pick out every flaw i want to be happy for who i am. I will stay strong and i wont give up because i CAN DO IT!!! :D
Despite the cottage only being last week, it feels a little late to even type this up, but I took all these photos, and made all these collages (go me!), and, well, y’know, I have a blog… and so here I am, and I shall call this mater piece of a post: Food at the cottage.
I headed to the cottage at 184lbs
I arrived home from the cottage at: 184lbs
I mimicked what everybody else ate, which was pretty much three meals a day, dessert every second day (one day, twice!), and minimal snacks. And, let’s face it, we ate well.
Going into the nine days of cottage-livin,’ I was soooo nervous about gaining all the weight while there, so I consciously told myself before to listen to my body; eat when I was hungry, and stop eating when I felt slightly full. And, it worked! I *definitely* felt myself think about food when I got bored, but instead of heading to the fridge, I went for a swim or kayak, or… a few times grabbed a piece of fruit.
Of course minus all the ice-cream (my family seriously loves ice-cream way too much), and the occasional cheese n’ crackers, I perhaps could have lost a pound or two, but I’m happy with staying neutral, and most importantly I’m happy I kept my head in the game. Because seriously, the hardest part of this whole “I-don’t-wanna-be-tubby-anymore” thing, is getting into the mental state of losing weight. That “no, I don’t need that, because I have a goal…” state of mind. I’ve found that I can wish n’ hope n’ want to lose weight, but until I have that awkward one-on-one chat with myself, that “you actually have to make sacrifices to lose weight, not just think about it,” talk, it’s all rather pointless.
Weight gain while on vacation: 0
I have worked so damn hard to get where I am now, not a single person can take this away from me.
I know I still have fat to lose but you know what else I know? I know I’ll get there. This is not a race to the finish line, this is a continuous process - day in and day out - for the rest of my life.
Body confidence 14/10 today.
Banana Oatmeal Breakfast Muffins…RECIPE
2.5 cups old fashioned oats
1 cup plain low fat greek yogurt
1/2 cup honey
2 tsp baking powder
1 tsp baking soda
2 TBSP ground flax seed
1 tsp vanilla
2 ripe bananas
Going to make these for sure!
All i need is some greek yogurt and I can make these tomorrow!!